Adults who were victims of childhood bullying - Does it still bother you? Have you ever sought out the bully?

you need to let go, i got bullied at high school for a few years, i was getting bullied by my whole year, the bullying got that bad at one point my mom took me out of school. i moved away from the area i used to live, over 200 miles but i often do think what did i do to warrant any of what i was put through, vain as it sounds i go with jealousy, i did not dress bad, i had the latest shoes etcf, i was not bitchy and all along i just wanted to be liked, it never happened obviously, they took away my self worth, made me feel embarred and hate my name, my self esteem suffered. the list is endless. i still go back home to visit my parents and every now and again, not often i see these girls, one of them in particular still gives me a dirty look whenever she saw me, i haven't seen her in a while, shes had a baby now so hopefully that has changed her for the better. i still feel my confidence would be knocked if i saw them though, only slightly not enough to make me wanna crawl up my own a** like i would have done if i was at school. im 20 years old coming 21 next month and expecting my first baby in october, please don't take offence because i commented and im only 20. i guess what im trying to say which is easier said than done is please try not to bitter, im not a preacher but i do believe and god pays debts without money and i Truly believe that, the best way you can spite the lot is to move forward with your life or your going to regret how much time you waisted on this when the bullies just got on with there life's. you need to hold your head up high and realise that it was not you it was them, ask yourself what your really going to achieve by getting in contact with any of them, if it's something you feel you have to do then i say do it. but i just got on with my life and whenever i saw them after that i held my head up and high and just got on with it, some of them even said hello. you wont forget what they did, but it will get easier and you will realise sooner or later you have to move on. good luck :))